Manipulations & Some Stress

So for my first order of business I said I'd post up my manip I finished of the band member graphic I did. =] And here it is! Whoot! I'm really glad they liked it!


Phew. Anyways, lately it's been rough. Recently my mom has been to the hospital after an MRI resulted in "findings" and the doctor told us that she had a mass on the left side of her brain. It is too deep to remove with effecting both her motor skills and speech permanently. This all happened starting last week on Wednesday. =[ She was recently supposed to have a biopsy but there was a mis-communication about the day and they wanted to do it on Christmas Eve .. mom passed in favor of just doing it on Monday of next week. I've been really stressed out and just a mess in the head and at work, suck it up Jess! heh.

Anywho, I have basically the whole rest of the week off. (pause as Trevor called ^^) Might wander on over to Trevors house for a portion of the day. Mom said something about going to see Nikki and her mom tomorrow morning so we'll see what happens then. I also gotta put that black duct tape to use and tape up my back window before it rains/snows again. @-@;; urgh.

Anywho! Christmas shopping is done for now ... I mean, I'm going to find out some stuff tomorrow and see if what I wanna get will work for Nikki but yeah. ♥ I think that's all for now, I gotta go stress over a manipulation I said I'd do. ><

♥ Toodles.

Relaxing after Teratoma Concert!!!

Boy was that an awesome show! I only disliked one band out of the four and by dislike I mean not like as much as the others .. the vocals were .. not fitting of the musicians that were playing. =/ Sorta sad but it happens and I had an awesome time. =D The usual crowd was there and I saw both people from the Joker get-together's as well as people I'd only see over at the Hallows! It was an awesome time and I know just about everyone had a rockin' time. I took a lot of pictures though I only had my long lens with me so most of the pictures I could've gotten of just people close up had to be skipped since I need to be at least 5 feet away and THEN I'm only getting your head and possibly your shoulders. xD lol. Anywho, here following this rambling of an adolecent female is some pictures freshly uploaded to the interwebs for your entertainment ..

Allie ♥ She's so pretty. xD I bet she doesn't even try. grr, jealous!

Zachary Windchester Phillips is the most amazing guy ever. Lol. singer that is. He is hilarious and in-between each of the bands he sung these amazing parodies and had me cracking up so hard! He also throws some pretty awesome parties too. xD

So the diet is going well thus far and I'm going to try to get under 200 by either next weekend OR the middle of the week after. ;D Wish me luck! DDR and walking the dog .. here I come!

That's all for now, nest installment will be a manip I did of pictures of the band smashed together. xD cause I am too lazy to upload five separte ones. xD WHOOT.

♥ Toodles.

goals, parties & "fun" fights

So Heidi is going to be due May 31st though me and a few others think the baby will be a June baby, how fun! Speaking of Heidi and NY and all that jazz, me and Laura are going to try to plan on going to NY January 14th-17th to see her, give her presents and etc! =D Dont'cha love my specifics?

My hair is now pretty well bleached up on top in the middle and now I'm just waiting, 5 days says my Aunt Phyllis who helped me on Sat, until I am gonna go back and do the black underneath and possibly the purple over the blonde. It's cool and all but I was gonna see if a three way color looked good -- I dunno. Blonde/White, Purple and then black? Maybe? I dunno. I'm gonna try to go there on Friday if my schedule allows since I have Thurs-Sat off right now and I have "sorta" plans for all three days. Thursday I might be hanging out with Karen, and if so, I won't know how long. On Friday I'm going to the movies with my parents (though that'll take only a few hours). And Sat night I'm going to the Teratoma show at the Hayloft.

Last night Joker had another one of his shindigs and it was amazing! It was a costume party (though I didn't know) and showed up to find Karen and Matt as zombies, Trevor as King Diamond (LOL) and tons of funny and some .. not so funny costumes. One dude got kicked teh shit out of by Joker aka Zachary Windchester Phillips -- the kid had it coming though since he f-ing wouldn't stop trying to fight this other drunk guy for "fun". *shakes head* men I swear . .

On another note these guys in the kitchen that were singing at the end of teh night were hilarious! They make all these sing along songs while their drunk and just .. it was a good time that was for sure! I didn't wanna leave but Trevor did so we left around 2:30 ish am and I remember glancing to my clock which said 3:30 am before I passed out. Lol. At least I worked at 8a instead of the usual 6a.

To wrap it up ... *glances around room* I NEED TO CLEAN THIS PLACE. *sigh* now to go weigh myself and feel more ugly. But yeah, changing it all. I'm gonna try to loose 60 lbs in 6 months. so by my Birthday I wanna look lean, mean and like a hella sexay machine! ;D

Toodles.

Fly by .. WHOOSH

Wow, October has flown by thanks to my second job at the Haunted House known as "Haunted Hallows. They became my second family in the month of October and I can't wait to see them throughout the spring and summer next year and into the fall!


So Laura and Nikki recently had birthdays and oh! the best news ever is .. my Heidi is pregnant! XD She's about 3 1/2 months along and going strong. *dances* I can't wait for the little bundle to be born! 8D

So Christmas is coming and I'm planning what I want to get for a few people as well as pay of my debt little by little over these months since month mom is going to AWESOMELY let me by-pass the rent I pay for 4 weeks. *dance* So that means more money to use on my lufferly family and friends. I already have two presents so far (dad & phyllis) so I still got Mia, Mom, Trevor, Laura, Heidi (and the baby), Nicole annnd ... possibly a few more if my wallet can handle it. ♥

Toodles for now

Frustrating Mixed Emotions

First of all, my bank sucks. They truly do. I'm quitting them once in for all once this interest comes through on my savings account from the save the change dealie-o. After that ... DONE. I'm going to the Flagstar bank in the Kroger parking lot and getting that $100 dollars and splitting it since half will go towards the joint account for my and Trev and the other will go towards my savings. <3 So frustrated right now cause of my credit cards and my eating ... stuff and exercising and just .. everything seems to be stressing me out recently and I really think it's the Depo comming out of my system since I got my shot done on the 11th or 12th of June.

*sigh* man, sighing feels so good. I don't know what it is but whenever I feel the need to overthink or just, in general, stress over things and all that I sigh and I feel pressure just ease off of my chest ... almost like the feeling of taking your first breath of air after holding it forever. It's odd and I was just thinking about it for awhile.

And well ... since Trevor apparently doesn't want me to go to all his party things then I wont and I'll try to make the best of everything and so my own hanging out get-togethers. I wasn't asking to hang out with his friends when it was one on one .. I was asking to go along to party type deals. UGH. It makes me feel like he doesn't want me around .. it really hurts.

Toodles.

A Blast From the PAST! + some other stuff

Recently I have been trying to make the best out of my life and try to involve myself more in party things and just all in all having fun! Last night was a blast getting to go to Joker's house for a small bonfire as well as go to this other girl Beck's house to swim and just chill -- until 5 am! I drove Trev, Matt & Ryan there though only Trev and Ryan back since uh ... -cough- Matt and Beck seemed to have other plans when we finally decided to leave. It's nice that Matt seems to have found someone although Trev says that him and McCormick have both thought that Matt's probably going to find something out about her he doesn't like within the next few months. Well, I hope that they're wrong and all but who knows what teh future holds, right?

Been trying to find some crafts to do recently but nothing is snagging my interest. I was trying these crochet dolls a friend of mine Allie told me about and lent be a book on, though I was using this cotton yarn and it just fell apart and frustrated me. Though I might try it now with the regular Lyon yarn or something. Speaking of yarn! I'm going to use these cash coupons I got from my work to by some more of Trevor's afghan color. <3

Annnd! Trevor says he's gonna try and look at my computer and see what's up, which is awesome! (and mean's it's free. lol) If not I will either bug our friend Tom or Doug .. though Tom is my first bet since Doug is only just becoming friendly with me. Time will tell but he's opening up. =]

Oh wow, an old friend of mine, Seth, just called me! xD It's so awesome cause I haven't heard from him in forever but just, wow! It's awesome that I can still have some ties to back in the day. Lol. But yeah, just talking about what we've been doing and photoshooping! hehe.

Small Updates + Future Promises

Blah, so I'm waiting for Trevor to call. >> Though I'm passing the time by roleplaying with my Heidi-kins --- geez I never thought we'd STILL be doing that this long! xD lol.



On a side note I cut my hair and dyed it red (with some blonde) and I GUESS it's okay. hehe. But I want it to be different again ... I'm so indecisive! xP Like right now I wanna go and buy some hair dye but o_o I'm too frickin' lazy. I just went and walked around by Metro Beach with Nikki earlier and my keet are killin me. xP

YAY ( Trevor just called, lol )

But anywho, I suppose rant and rave time will be for later. :] Or well, story time anyway.

Toodles! ♥